Well peeps, I did make it to my meeting last night. I did gain 1.2 pounds. My weight is currently at 188.6 pounds, which is a total of 27.2 pounds lost. That is about the same since I stopped posting way back in November. Not bad! I thought it would be worse!
Coincidentally, the topic of last nights meeting was, OBSTACLES! How do we get through them? How do we let them affect us? For me, I ignore it. I am a master of not thinking about it. I can go through life not addressing any problem because I am pushing it down! I realized last night, I was ignoring my plan, my eating, my exercising because I didn't want to address it. Didn't want to think about the days where I ate out every, single meal. The four nights of McDonald's, the endless cappuccinos, the chips, the pop, the everything! And then being mad when the scale went up, not down! Even though I knew why, I was just ignoring the problem!
I realized last night, I can't do that anymore. I am cheating myself. If I don't start paying attention RIGHT NOW, THIS MINUTE! I am going to fail. I am going to quit. I can recognize it. Before, it would be a relief to me but now it is disappointment. Not only am I letting down myself, I am letting down my children, my husband and my friends here on my blog and in my life. I want to be an inspiration! A success story! I CAN DO IT!
So anyway after the meeting I was supposed to go to dance but I needed to go home to pick up Jordy from Tae Kwon Do. (20 minutes away) I got to TKD and picked him up, ran home, dropped him off with Dad and Lexi and left to go to dance. I wasn't even 10 minutes out of town before I noticed I was out of gas! I made it back home, but we had no moolah left! We don't get paid until midnight on Thursdays! I was bummed out. I missed last weeks class because I was working and I really wanted to go to this weeks. I didn't let it get to me though! I wanted to munch on nachos (seriously craving them lately) but I didn't. I had leftover mashed potatoes and a chicken breast. Afterwards, I tidied up a bit and went to bed.
I did make my meal plan this morning and I am going grocery shopping tonight for it! I am also going to the gym with a couple of friends of mine.
I have made a commitment to work out 5 days a week as well. I am not going to let myself forget or ignore. I need to be aware everyday so I don't fall into that trap again. I'm just grateful that this time I realized what I was doing before it was too late.
Till next time Blogland!
BTW - Love you too Lee!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Seriously?
Seriously? November 24 was my last post? 72 days ago? I'm amazed I remembered my password!!
Well a lot has happened since November. Weight wise, work wise and me wise. As you may have guessed I fell off the wagon. I went to my last meeting on December 02 and didn't go back until December 30. Crazy, I know! I gained over the holidays about 3 pounds give or take. I did continue to work out but missed all my hip hop classes for December. I also completely stopped tracking and am still struggling with it.
The WW program has changed now too. It is completely different. Everyone starts out with a minimum of 29 points, which is what I was at anyway. You now can eat all fruits and veggies and they are 0 points! Yeah for FRUIT! The points are now calculated differently as well. They are measured by fat, fibre, carbs and protein. Instead of fat, fibre and calories. You are also allowed to have 49 weekly allowance points instead of 36. It focuses more on "Power Foods" such as: fruits, vegetables, whole grains, non-fat dairy and dairy substitutes, lean proteins and others. The plan does work when used! Which brings me to my problem, I'm not USING it! I am sticking my head in the sand when it comes to eating!?
I'm not even trying to eat healthy! Takeout, skipping meals and workouts! I am still going to my meetings, so that's good. I did miss last weeks but I worked until midnight so there you go!
I don't know what's wrong with me? I just stopped caring! I need to get my a** back in gear and get going again. I can tell too. I'm tired, cranky and just don't feel like doing anything. I know that will go away for the most part when I start taking care of me again. My WW meeting is tonight and I know WI will be bad. I think I will be over the 190 mark again! Aaaarrrrggghhhh!
It's a mean path! But I know I am 100% to blame. I can be making better choices, I'm just not. At the last meeting I went to, I was talking to one of the leaders and a lifetime member about how busy I am and how difficult it is for me to make/choose a healthy option. She said to write down a list of 5 quick, easy meals to make and their points. That way when I get home late we can be eating healthy in less than 1/2 an hour. The lifetime member suggested I plan my weekly meals and before she got her sentence out, I was saying, "I can't, I'm far too busy for that." I immediately shut her out. On the way home I felt bad about it. Why do I always say, "I can't, don't, won't." I do have time. It sounds like a lot of work but it really isn't. Not to mention my grocery bill will be less when I'm planning my meals. So before I go to bed tonight, I am going to plan my meals. I will go grocery shopping and get what I need. I don't want to be the person I was when I started this blog. I REFUSE to let myself get back to 215.8 + more!
I read my blog from the beginning to my last post and that has helped me to remember what I wanted, what I need. Also, to recognize my past accomplishments.
In other news, I will officially cease to be business owner on February 15, 2011. I will also be out of work! I have mixed emotions about the whole thing. We were in business since March of 2003 and it has been a long ride! It has also been a real eye-opener! Many people desire to own their own business and be their own boss. I am not one of those people! It was so stressful, so much work, and so much worry. Especially since the economy came to a crashing halt in 2008. I live in a small town in Northern Alberta and we rely heavily on the oil field. We have agriculture here as well but our business took a big hit that we could never seem to recover from. We also had Walmart open here in 2008 and that didn't help! I am sad to see it go but also very grateful. I've been wanting to be done for quite a while now and I am happy to be so close to being finished but sad to see two business's leave our small town. (we had the Sears catalogue outlet here too)
I am excited to get to spend more time with my family. I will not have such a hectic work life and I won't be so stressed out all the time! I have applied for 2 jobs and am hoping to land one of them! One of them is semi full-time, the other is very part-time. If not, that's OK too. I have a lot of jobs that I would like to tackle in my home that will keep me busy for a while. I also have plans to take my Teachers Aid Certificate by night starting in September and I am looking forward to it.
It looks like 2011 is going to be the year of change for me and my family. Change is good! I am really looking forward to what this year brings.
All I need now is to get my head out of the sand, stay on track and keep exercising!
Till next time Blogland!
Well a lot has happened since November. Weight wise, work wise and me wise. As you may have guessed I fell off the wagon. I went to my last meeting on December 02 and didn't go back until December 30. Crazy, I know! I gained over the holidays about 3 pounds give or take. I did continue to work out but missed all my hip hop classes for December. I also completely stopped tracking and am still struggling with it.
The WW program has changed now too. It is completely different. Everyone starts out with a minimum of 29 points, which is what I was at anyway. You now can eat all fruits and veggies and they are 0 points! Yeah for FRUIT! The points are now calculated differently as well. They are measured by fat, fibre, carbs and protein. Instead of fat, fibre and calories. You are also allowed to have 49 weekly allowance points instead of 36. It focuses more on "Power Foods" such as: fruits, vegetables, whole grains, non-fat dairy and dairy substitutes, lean proteins and others. The plan does work when used! Which brings me to my problem, I'm not USING it! I am sticking my head in the sand when it comes to eating!?
I'm not even trying to eat healthy! Takeout, skipping meals and workouts! I am still going to my meetings, so that's good. I did miss last weeks but I worked until midnight so there you go!
I don't know what's wrong with me? I just stopped caring! I need to get my a** back in gear and get going again. I can tell too. I'm tired, cranky and just don't feel like doing anything. I know that will go away for the most part when I start taking care of me again. My WW meeting is tonight and I know WI will be bad. I think I will be over the 190 mark again! Aaaarrrrggghhhh!
It's a mean path! But I know I am 100% to blame. I can be making better choices, I'm just not. At the last meeting I went to, I was talking to one of the leaders and a lifetime member about how busy I am and how difficult it is for me to make/choose a healthy option. She said to write down a list of 5 quick, easy meals to make and their points. That way when I get home late we can be eating healthy in less than 1/2 an hour. The lifetime member suggested I plan my weekly meals and before she got her sentence out, I was saying, "I can't, I'm far too busy for that." I immediately shut her out. On the way home I felt bad about it. Why do I always say, "I can't, don't, won't." I do have time. It sounds like a lot of work but it really isn't. Not to mention my grocery bill will be less when I'm planning my meals. So before I go to bed tonight, I am going to plan my meals. I will go grocery shopping and get what I need. I don't want to be the person I was when I started this blog. I REFUSE to let myself get back to 215.8 + more!
I read my blog from the beginning to my last post and that has helped me to remember what I wanted, what I need. Also, to recognize my past accomplishments.
In other news, I will officially cease to be business owner on February 15, 2011. I will also be out of work! I have mixed emotions about the whole thing. We were in business since March of 2003 and it has been a long ride! It has also been a real eye-opener! Many people desire to own their own business and be their own boss. I am not one of those people! It was so stressful, so much work, and so much worry. Especially since the economy came to a crashing halt in 2008. I live in a small town in Northern Alberta and we rely heavily on the oil field. We have agriculture here as well but our business took a big hit that we could never seem to recover from. We also had Walmart open here in 2008 and that didn't help! I am sad to see it go but also very grateful. I've been wanting to be done for quite a while now and I am happy to be so close to being finished but sad to see two business's leave our small town. (we had the Sears catalogue outlet here too)
I am excited to get to spend more time with my family. I will not have such a hectic work life and I won't be so stressed out all the time! I have applied for 2 jobs and am hoping to land one of them! One of them is semi full-time, the other is very part-time. If not, that's OK too. I have a lot of jobs that I would like to tackle in my home that will keep me busy for a while. I also have plans to take my Teachers Aid Certificate by night starting in September and I am looking forward to it.
It looks like 2011 is going to be the year of change for me and my family. Change is good! I am really looking forward to what this year brings.
All I need now is to get my head out of the sand, stay on track and keep exercising!
Till next time Blogland!
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